I'm so nervous that I'm catching a chill...

The weirdest thing is that I am not certain that this is normal. Let me back track just a little bit here. I'm talking about going all the way with the girl I am currently seeing. Now, normally, most guys would be on that right from the get go. That would be one of the first things most guys would definitely want to get over with so that it can be done over and over again. It's not a bad thing. I have come a long way from thinking that everyone should wait till they are happily ready to partake in the holy sanctity that is marriage before they complete the relationship by sleeping together. A long way.

These days it's quite normal for guys and girls to be bumping and grinding on a regular basis. In fact, so many people lose or have lost their virginity @ the age of 14. Now, I think it is a little soon to be having sex at such a tender age, but people will do what they will because they can. I mean, we're barely "people" @ that age but then again our society has progressed in the speed in which we "mature." As children growing up, we are too often bombarded by the media and our peers about what to think, particularly in the realm of sex. We do not take the proper amount of time to process all the information, but because we have to cope in order to keep up, we assume that we understand it and just go with the flow.

Now, my girl is eager to get going and wants me to be ready. I have finally come to a decision that I am ready for this to happen. I have run out of excuses to use and have nothing else to put it off so I am definitely ready. To be honest, I do want it. I enjoyed it a lot when it was happening. I mean, c'mon, who doesn't enjoy it when they're having sex? If it happens, it is just unfortunate, and that is no fun. And it has been way too long (3 years to be exact). A man can go stir-crazy in that amount of time without getting any action.

So, it's gonna happen, and soon too. Sometime within the next 3 days, we are going to take that plunge and not look back. And, you know what, it is going to be incredible. Fuck yes, it will be...